two adult males.
i'm with one inside, he's at repose gnawing on something.
i'm aware that the other is outside - sense of residential area - and i ought to get him in.
Wednesday, June 24, 2026
Tuesday, June 23, 2026
Yi 55: TAWIMD 7: re my sense she is in a Loveless marriage
it's the elements in a few of the dreams.
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Yi 54: on knowing there is no Relationship without Honda Knot
meant "there is NO Relationship..."
Hilary Barrett:
"To experience Integrity is like coming face to face with your real self – plain, simple and unadorned. To have Integrity is to be whole, at one with yourself and with reality. It means being honest about your own capacities, holding yourself in creative balance with your world and not exaggerating the importance of your role. This ‘know thyself’ hexagram can also mean realism about your own capacities, as well as your own importance in the greater scheme of things.
These qualities enable the noble one to bring whatever work presents itself to completion. Since she is not overly full of herself, she has space for the real world; she isn't hampered by an excess or by a lack of confidence. Since she isn't caught up in a personal story, and doesn't identify her work with her worth, she is free to do what needs to be done and move on."
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Yi 52: what makes Veronica seemingly Impossible re Relationship
see "defies common sense" below, as that is what relates to my use of "seemingly impossible."
" 'Coupling' means meeting, and also a woman who gives birth to the heir – the powerful woman. She represents someone (of either sex) or something with a profound and mysterious power to attract you, to take over, and to change everything. She moves you, re-energizes and gives birth to new life.
The oracle warns you not to take the woman – not to try to seize control of her, and not to marry her. Do not imagine that you can bring her under control, assimilate her into your life and continue as before. Such a marriage cannot last. This woman has more power than any system where you might try to contain her. She might bring desires that undermine a well-balanced life, or an irruption of feeling into a realm of abstractions, or chance and irrationality to threaten a logical, ordered mind.
Perhaps you will stand fast and resist this power's attraction. Perhaps you will embrace her briefly and let your life be transformed by the encounter. But you cannot take her or marry her."
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Yi 45: what have i done for myself in 15-plus years of celibacy
Other titles: The Vessel, Rejuvenation, A complete transformation of a person or circumstance
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Yi 44; what good that i Save Myself for Love
contextually, fwiw to whomever might stumble upon this, i've been celibate by choice for over 15-and a-half years.
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Yi 42: recognizing solely sexual attraction
Hilary Barrett:
"Great Possession means you are rich – maybe in material goods, maybe in less tangible assets, like knowledge, wisdom, power, energy, talent or relationships. Whatever form it takes, you have something real and potent in your possession."
Monday, June 22, 2026
Yi 40: leaving Annamarie alone despite my desire
It's a No, and that's just the fact of the matter.
The Image:
Legge: Heaven and earth are estranged -- the image of Divorcement. The superior man preserves his virtue by withdrawing from evil, and refuses both honor and wealth.
Wilhelm/Baynes: Heaven and earth do not unite: the image of Standstill. Thus the superior man falls back upon his inner worth in order to escape the difficulties. He does not permit himself to be honored with revenue.
Blofeld: This hexagram symbolizes heaven and earth cut off from each other. To conserve his stock of virtue, the Superior Man withdraws into himself and thus escapes from the evil influences around him. He declines all temptations of honor and riches.
Liu: Heaven and earth are not united, symbolizing stagnation. The superior man restrains himself to avoid danger. He seeks neither honor nor wealth.
Ritsema/Karcher: Heaven, earth, not mingling. Obstruction. A chun tzu uses parsimonious actualizing-tao to cast-out heaviness. A chun tzu uses not permitting splendor to use benefits.
Wu: … The jun zi practices the virtue of frugality to alleviate difficulties, but does not allow himself to be honored with official salary.
COMMENTARY
Confucius/Legge: The unfavorable auspice of Divorcement is because heaven and earth are not in communication, and all things consequently fail to unite. High and low, superior and inferior, do not meet in union, and there are no well- regulated states in the kingdom. The lower trigram consists of magnetic lines, and the upper of dynamic lines: darkness is within, clarity without; weakness within, strength without. The lower trigram represents the advancing inferior men, the upper trigram represents the retreating superior men.
Legge: The form of Divorcement is the exact opposite of Harmony, and much of what has been said on the interpretation of that will apply to this. Divorcement is the hexagram of the seventh month when the process of growth has ended and increasing decay may be expected.
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Yi 39: Asian Woman Father's Approval dream, add Veronica
What it felt like, anyway. Like I have his okay re his daughter. Not a word said, he pulls me in.
related?
Hilary Barrett:
"The early Chinese character for 'Opening' shows someone with words rising from their mouth: they seem to be dancing and singing. It means joyful and outgoing expression that opens up communication.
Opening brings people together and begins a lively creative process of sharing and exchange. It liberates human energies, motivates people to overcome hardship and encourages perseverance."
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Sunday, June 21, 2026
mountain meadow, hunter and tom, in progress
in the saddle, behind chloe and jackie, behind claire and sess.
T do you worry about her?
H only semi-constantly. semi-kidding. a lesson in release. i guess.
T i’d think san luis obispo is a pretty safe place.
H relatively. statistically. i’m a worrier. she’s a great kid in the best hands.
T you and barbara get along alright?
H we do. she’s my closest friend and i a wonderful mother.
T Chloe’s mentioned her grandparents.
H john and jan, retired attorneys in the paso robles area.
T well that’s pretty close, ain’t it?
H half-hour.
T in good health.
H excellent health. swim three times a week, walk nine holes of golf twice a week. and ski jackson hole four days straight once a year.
T outta her aunt kate’s in wilson.
H correct. john’s sister. recently married to a man named cedric, whom i have yet to meet.
to be cont’d.
Saturday, June 20, 2026
Tom/Cedric Vietnam talkinamyself
Cedric remembers a “Tom Walker from Bandera, Texas.”
KATE: How?
CEDRIC (BEAT): Vietnam.
KATE (BEAT): Under what circumstances?
Cedric looks off into space.
KATE (BEAT): Cedric?
He turns to her.
CEDRIC: Saved my life.
KATE: A story you could share with me?
He nods, stands, extends hand to her.
CEDRIC: Early walk?
She nods, takes his hand, stands.
CEDRIC (CONT.) Probably a helluva lot of Tom Walkers have come out of Bandera, Texas.
KATE: Agreed.
They walk hand in hand to sliding glass door,
KATE (CONT.): There will be photographs.
CEDRIC: It’s been awhile.
KATE: Do you think he’d remember Warrant Officer Cedric Turner.
They arrive at sliding glass door.
CEDRIC: If he does I’d sure like to talk to him.
He opens door, leads into bedroom, they leave view.
Tom’s tour of Hunter’s house
INT. HUNTER’S GUEST ROOM - DAY
Tom leaves into hall. A BATHROOM across the way, to his left an alcove that bends right to door to GARAGE. To his right, the FOYER at end of hall. Before foyer, door on left, door on right. Door to left opens to HOME GYM. Farther up hall, door to right opens to READING ROOM/LOUNGE.
At foyer, opening to right to KITCHEN/DINING.
He re-enters foyer, crosses into hallway, at the end of which a turn right into another.
Before that, door on left, door on right, another door on left where the hall turns right.
Door on left opens to HOME THEATER.
Farther on, door on right opens to BATHROOM.
Door on left where hall turns right opens to CHLOE’S ROOM.
The hall turns right into another. Door on right, door at end of hall.
Door to right opens to HUNTER’S MASTER BEDROOM.
Door at end of hall opens to HOME OFFICE.
Thursday, June 18, 2026
Yi 34: re recognizing need for Mental Health Day yesterday
Woke to recognition of need for timeout, lingered with happy catboy, to KS for a meal and a few coldies with World Cup soccer on, moved timeout up the hill to conclude at GW.
It helped considerably.
Other titles: Withdrawal, Strategic Withdrawal, Inaccessibility, Disassociation from Inferior Forces
Hilary Barrett:
"Retreat means withdrawing from what can harm you, or what might swallow you up: it is a way to keep yourself whole. So retreating creates success: it is not defeat, but the way to avoid defeat, like an army that falls back and stays intact. When you retreat, you hide yourself away – you might disappear into the landscape altogether – so that you will not lose yourself.
Retreat moves away from threats, and towards wholeness and integrity. It is a way to be constant to principle, and to yourself, by paying less attention to immediate results. The hermit, constant to the truth he perceives, withdraws from society into an inner space."
Wednesday, June 17, 2026
Cedric emails John…
John with Jan, forward email to Barbara with Brian, forward email to Hunter, who reads it after Tom has told the Tahoe tale and gone to bed.
Its contents - Tom saving Clarence’s life in Vietnam - is the subject of conversation between Hunter and Chloe on the way to the airport.
Tuesday, June 16, 2026
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